My 1st TTM roles

We have conducted our toastmaster meeting yesterday afternoon and I am so glad that I’ve performed my role (Table Topic Master) well based on the feedback from the senior toastmasters and the floor. Though it was my first TTM role, the evaluation result was encouraging as the a evaluator could not detect any a or long pauses and the Table Topic Evaluator has commended my topic which encourages deep/analytical thinking. Well, there’s a lot more to learn. Anyway, it was a good start!

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I have so many things that I wanted t write but unable to find the right time yet.. I thought of doing it during the 3-day off. May be tomorrow huh.., right now need to prepare my topic for my (Toastmasters) table topic presentation this coming Tuesday..

I think my brain need some food now.. Let's see the secret to success
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A heartbreaking destiny

Actually, I have been thinking about writing this for sometime. I am actually feeling so down lately coz of the horrific incident happened to the UMS female student which was kidnapped, sexually abused and brutally rape by the two evil bastards. I feel sad and angry for what happened to her and helpless for not able to do anything..

I just could not help to think about her suffering. Imagine the shock and the sheer terror state she was at that time not to mention the agony she went through. It was unbearable! The trauma, the terror, the pain and the agony will haunt her for the rest of her life. It was an act of unspeakable cruelty.

And what a devastating future for such a young good girl. God, give her strength..

So heartbreaking!

Birthday

I am not the kind of person who embrace the birthday celebration culture, not to mention at this age... too many candles hahaha! My good friend told me once that I am lack with human touch or feel.. tak ade perasaan! Well, I guess she was right.. I remember I've had two cake-cutting informal ceremonies in my life time. My close friends bought the cake for me. 1st one, Azli & Azlinda and 2nd one, Rahimah. Unfortunately, I could not recall when was that exactly. Poor my friends! I am not appreciative (at their efforts) at all! Anyway, to me the celebration is not important. It's their thought that really count.. The thought of my friend is the (always) best present ever.. Thanks & loves for them, muaah! I always love them, they are more than friends to me..

Talking about birthday make me think that how much time more do I have in this life? When death is so close to every human in the world, we tend to forget about the purpose of our creation and we just get carried away. Alhamdulillah, I am able to reach 42 but I did not achieve much as a Muslim. That's worrying and scare me to the bone!

My wish is that God will give me some time to prepare myself for my death and life after death. My 'amal' is nothing & the only thing that I want in life now is to be a good Muslim and a good human being.

My 1st entry

This will be my official blog… it’s funny though I am doing this at the age of 42. Well, why not? And today is even a good day to start it I guess because today is my 42nd birthday hehe…(based on Malaysian time)

Anyway, I feel that I need an avenue to talk about something meaningful, serious things and something that really affect me emotionally and spiritually or just sharing my thoughts. And it’s a way to practice my writing too.. I am actually very bad in writing be it in Malay or English. I just don't know how to express my thoughts beautifully.

Well, lets hope that I can share something meaningful…and I hope it’s not going to bore you :)

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